I want to share something that’s a little personal with you this week. Here it goes.
I have been procrastinating editing my book manuscript . . . for nearly a year.
As you might guess, I love to write. It’s one of my favorite things. So, in January 2014 I started writing a book on non-profit storytelling.
Sitting down and writing my book manuscript was remarkably easy for me. But then I came to the point when I need to actually edit it and send the book out into the world. Well, that part hasn’t been so easy.
In the last week I realized that my procrastination has nothing to do with me not wanting to finish the project. The real reason I’m procrastinating is because I’m afraid of failing. Let me explain what I mean by that.
Through the process of researching, interviewing people, and writing this book I have learned so much about storytelling. I’ve arrived at many insights I don’t think I would have otherwise had. Part of me has come to believe that my learning will never be done, and so I hesitate to believe that what will be in the book will be the “right” information.
A book is a very permanent medium. Once those words are in print, it’s not so easy to go back and make changes. What if I learn something new that contradicts what’s in print in the book? What if there are new technologies that affect how we tell stories?
The answers to most of my “what if” questions are almost always “yes.” Yes, I will learn new things that I wish would be in the book.
In my life, I’ve always tried to embrace uncertainty as a way to work through fear. Practicing this philosophy while trying to finish my book manuscript hasn’t been as easy, but I’m happy to report that I am trying my best and as of November 1, I am actively editing my book.
I do want to finish this book and be able to share it with you. It’s something I’m really proud of.
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